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"These fragments I have shored against my ruins."

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11年前の今日アメリカに

もうあれから11年か。デイヴィスには直で行けなくて、ユーリカという小さな地方空港に行く羽目になって、空港というよりは日本の片田舎の無人鉄道駅のような佇まいに驚き、空港周りの何も無さにさらに驚き、ホームステイ先に遅れると連絡したいのにネットは…

UCIのキャンパスを本当に美しいと感じる、おそらく初めて

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Perhaps for the very first time I'm finding this campus pretty beautiful. Walking around the campus this morning, I was struck by its bright flowers, birds' chirping, sweet air, clear sky, and smiling faces on Ring Road. How tragic my life…

日本にいるほうが孤独を感じる

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I feel lonelier and more isolated in Japan than in CA. Wherefrom comes this sense of emptiness and tristesse?

ホームカミング?

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It's hard to believe that I leave the US for my home country in less than six hours. But I'm unsure whether I can say that I'm going "back" to Japan. Is this really a homecoming? Isn't this more like going to another country? One thing I c…

LA行きの列車を逃す

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I missed the train to LA due to several delays that occurred in the route from NY to Chicago. Now I'm in a long line to talk with a passenger services person. The problem is that the substitute ticket automatically sent to me--surprisingly…

アムトラック的な経験

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Yes, this is how Amtrak works: Delay. The train stopped at Albany-Rensselaer, for about two and half hours, and doesn't seem to depart for how long I don't know. I'm afraid that I might miss a return train to LA at Union Station, Chicago, …

BakersfieldのAmtrak駅

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The 3-hour bus trip from LA was done. What come next are a 4-hour train trip to Stockton, and then another bus trip to Sacramento which takes only (!) an hour. After that, I finally get connected to the Zephyr route, in which I spend more …

LAのUnion Stationから

Thank all of you who came to the pub and waited me. I finally arrived at Union Station, LA. The first bus leaves here in two hours. Today was such an eventful day, of course, in a bad way. I hope this won't be a bad omen for this trip. Aft…

本を返す

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Hi all, I finally arrived at UCI campus and am now bringing boxes of books to the library. After this, I'll go to the pub, if you're still there. And special thanks go to my friend who accompanied me all the day! I returned all the books I…

カリフォルニアを離れる最後の日に

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On the very last day I leave CA, I finally made a huge mistake. I made a collision accident, hitting a car in front of me which hit another which hit another. Fortunately nobody got injured (as far as I remember, and I was actually slowing…

異邦人としてやって来て、何者として去っていくのか

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I'll be on campus or around Irvine on Wednesday and Thursday. And probably I'll leave for Union Station LA from the amtrak station in Irvine in the late evening of Thursday. Like the protagonist of Schubert's Winterreise, I came here as a …

ロサンゼルスから鉄道で大陸横断旅行

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I depart from LA for the coast-to-coast train trip in the early morning of Friday and come back to LA in the morning of Dec. 19th. I leave for Japan in the morning of Dec. 20th. I'll be on campus from around noon to 5 PM tomorrow and proba…

博論提出

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s u b m i t t e d

提出直前

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I moved to the final submission website. But I really wonder who is really capable of reading all the tedious instructions about publishing, creative commons, and so on and so forth. It's funny, though, to hear that I may earn "royalties" …

参考文献表完成

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A works cited list is complete. Now, the rest is to combine chapters and upload a pdf file to the library archives page. So close, almost done.

最後のセンテンスを書き終える

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I think I've just written down the last sentence. No doubt it's crazy that you're still writing your drafts on the very day you're planning to submit a final draft. It's like playing a game you know you can never win but still somewhat bel…

図書館での夜明かし2日目突入

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I'll spend a second night in the library, in the same chair, in front of the same computer. Last night I was yet very uncertain. Tonight I feel far more relaxed. I've collected my committee's signatures. I've finished the online surveys. Y…

博論をオープンアクセスにするためのコスト95ドル?

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Wait, do I have to pay $95 if I choose the "open access publishing" option, instead of the free "traditional publishing" option? REALLY?

博論要旨完成

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All right, I finished writing an abstract. I still need to find nice concluding sentences and edit a few chapters, but the writing part is almost done and I'm going to get the signatures of the committee members today. Most likely I'll upl…

図書館で夜明かし

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I stayed overnight in the library. Edit, sleep, edit, sleep, edit sleep. Now a coffee break.

無理矢理書いた16頁の結論

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I ended up writing a full-fledged conclusion, or mashing up 16 pages from the previously written but discarded drafts. I reread those pages and found them okay. I need one more paragraph and it's done. I admit that they are not the very be…

あと数時間、それで終わりになる

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The final conclusion will be completed in a few hours. So close to the end. I feel really bad about working on the drafts to the very last moment, but I may still be proud of having never compromised the quality.

結論を捏造する、この最後の瞬間に

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I forgot to write a conclusion and am now desperately trying to fabricate one. Not a long piece. Just a few pages. Perhaps it's enough to put the dumbest, most boring, most meaningless one, a summary of the previous chapters. But a prepost…

帰国便のチケットを購入する

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I finally booked a one-way ticket to Japan. I also finished planning my last (but almost first) trip in the US. I'm going to travel coast to coast, from LA to Chicago to NY. I depart on Dec 9th and come back to LA on Dec 19th, and leave fo…

博論の修正がどうにか終わる

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It looks that I have finished revising the last chapter. At last, I have to add. I want to reread it from beginning to end once again and do some minor editing, but I'll do no major changes. To be sure I'm still far from being done. I have…

博論の改訂を終える、ほとんど

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Almost, almost there. Everything has been rewritten. I mean this literally. No paragraph has been left intact, every sentence modified. I often wondered, and am still wondering, "am I writing a dissertation or something else?" because what…

博論の改訂をほとんど終える

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I ended up rewriting the whole dissertation. These few weeks I was revising it, sentence by sentence, chapter by chapter, and I'm so exhausted by this endless process. But I'm getting to understand my dissertation better, not yet really lo…

ついに博士論文草稿を書き上げる

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Okay, I finally, FINALLY, finished writing the last chapter on Kropotkin. Last two months I kept telling people that I was finishing it and I meant that. I believed that I was finishing, but I kept writing and revising, which became an une…

最後の引っ越し

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It turns out that I have to move out from Costa Mesa early next month, and I'm now looking for a new room to stay by the beginning of December. I'm not decided yet, but leaning toward the place in Long Beach which I visited today. It's ver…

学生のレポートを処分するか

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What do you do with student papers and bluebooks? I have a few boxes full of such things and there's no available space for keeping them any longer. However, as I imagine throwing them away into a dust box and they would get smeared with d…