Student evaluations show that my sections were either liked or disliked with a very thin layer of the middle position. I think I earned this mixed feedback for good reasons. I'm not a person who'd be loved by everyone and I even feel this polarization is a good sign, for my conviction is that hatred would be a better reaction than indifference in pedagogical situations. Yet, I can't deny that I got hurt by them. The damage is very light but still quite deep, keeping me melancholic and inert for hours. Probably I'm making a mistake to take their evaluations about my sections and me as an instructor for criticizing me as an individual person. My reason knows this confusion, but that doesn't save me from this weirdly affective shock.
