Every 15 to 20 mins afternoon nap I take these solitary months results in terror. An alarm rings, I stop it, and intense sensations assail me; it's like an interrupted sleep condenses and compresses the whole dream content in a few seconds and replays it at high speed. Thus I seem to re-experience the dream in its entirety at the moment of awaking, or perhaps I sensuously recollect it at that moment; whichever is true, those dream images are so real and visceral that I'm startled to feel my heart beating very loud. And then I find some parts of my body paralyzed, probably because of the strange emotional shocks the images produced in and on me. I stay on the bed for a few minutes, in the state of semiconsciousness where, projected on my closed eyelids but also mingled with sun light coming in through the blinds in my room, bright colors dance very fast, taking various shapes, and lines transform into triangles and squares and many other geometrical contours, accompanied with some metallic noises that repeat same motifs with some slight differences, like minimal music. It takes a few minutes to recover from this hallucinatory state that is half painful and half delightful. The recovery always goes on very successfully and quickly; after 10 or 15 minutes, I almost forget that I had such a bad time in sleeping and awaking; no trace of damage.
