うろたどな

"These fragments I have shored against my ruins."

学生のペーパーを読んで落胆する、身勝手に、矛盾含みに。

It makes me very sad to read students' papers that are really bad because they did nothing to respond to my feedback, as if refusing to hear any of my advice. Yet, I'm quite sure I'd feel uncomfortable, even disappointed, when students followed all my comments obediently, as if flattering me would be a way to win a good grade. I want them to write as I do, but at the same time I'm hoping they write something quite different from what I suggested to them, something I've never imagined, never expected. I don't know, however, whether this is a selfish wish of an incompetent TA or not.